Where you have no company but yourself, & you're not such fabulous company anyway.
Where tomorrow's needlessly long & yesterday's sharply bitter, although vague & barely there at all.
Where your breathing attempts awkward conversations with your heartbeat every once in a while, fails miserably & falls silent.
And when the monsters come out to play... I think you should pick on somebody your own size, you hear me?!
Do you hear me?
Father??
Save me...
I love you
ReplyDeletewelcome to the photobloging world
ReplyDeletethis gave much more meaning to the pic
well fw, I thought the photo was expressive already, but thanks anyway :)
ReplyDeleteKi, I love you.
Saint Teresa once said "answered prayers cause more tears than those that remain unanswered"
ReplyDeleteCareful what u wish for, remember?
Careful what u pray for.
alone, but your loneliness should feel easier, when u know that there are others who yearn to break that loneliness, to be with you.
u're lonelier, when u're amongst people who should be close to u, and yet u can't relate and u feel the other way around doesn't work either.
u're lonelier when u feel u're better off on your own than with the company of people.
i'm not trying to undermine your feelings
just trying to accentuate your opportunities.
hey Python,
ReplyDeleteyeah well, funny thing is that what you're saying was what the entry was about at first, then I erased it all & wrote something else...
Truth is, I've no clue which is worse, to have people & still feel lonely.. or to have none at all around.
But at least I know, that nobody is better off alone than with people, even if they feel so at some point.
God thought the same way when He created Eve.
Oh & I think you mean Mother Teresa... & this is the second quote of hers on this blog that I feel I want to contradict! It just doesn't make sense. Yes some things you pray for do hurt after you get them, but this can't be a rule now, can it?! Because if it is then maybe we shouldn't pray anymore!
No, No, saint Teresa refers to Teresa of Ávila (1515-1582), not Mother (a step higher in the dogmatic food chain)
ReplyDeleteBut in all cases, do u really mean that? like if she added sometimes at the beginning u'd feel fine with it? is that what it really means, a rule?? i thought this was meant to be taken in a literary manner, not literally, and i don't know nor care what she meant by it, what I meant, i hinted for in the following lines, that it all comes down to the meaning of prayer, if that phrase was to be taken literally, then perhaps we shouldn't pray anymore, but doesn't this imply that praying means just asking for something? is that true? do we need to ask? what does matthew 6 say about that? and how comes "some things you pray for do hurt after you get them"?? if that would be an "answered prayer" then sometimes God deliberately hurts us?? i don't think so.
"even if they feel so at some point"?? what if that "at some point" was a whole lifetime?? there are many forms of loneliness and i was just comparing, some people wear their hearts on their sleeves only to discover that there are either no sleeves or that other people run with scissors all the time, cutting the sleeves (along with the hearts) away, how is that for loneliness. how is that for exile on the mainstreet?
Others are lonelier because they can't communicate with the people closest to them, and, eventally, because of that, they end up losing them all, one by one, have u ever felt that before? "...& in the darkened underpass i thought, oh God, my chance has come at last, but then a strange fear gripped me and i just couldn't ask...", i didn't think so.
As i said, i'm not rediculing your feelings, never at all, but i'm just pointng out that your loneliness is related only to your present state, so think about those whose "present state" is their own nature, can they ever change that?
i don't think so.